Burnt Soul

i would do everything, but He says i dont have to do anything still you do nothing

We ripped, shredded, and trampled what God put together, far from keeping it together we shattered it along with my heart.

It's been months, many months, y am i still so weak? so feeble in faith and fun I must deserve to be miserable

I can waste away in my bed or his, either way its a waste filled with remnants of your fire

inside my heart, mind, and soul flames rage and suffocate my rationality

i've prayed i've fasted, i've prostrated and lasted.... until now

i scream for saving and you do nothing

never been too weak to save myself until now

so i let him throw punches, blow after blow to my sanity, my sense of self a pile of ashes

i welcome it i suppose, what else is a burnt soul good for

like a burnt house it wil be vandalized, gutted and soon removed from the earth

so i wait til my prayer is answered or you both return to sanity or my Savior comes

Better Life

You were the one,

you held a promise of a better life,

for me and for you,

We would have soared through the night sky

would have found ourselves on cloud 9

I want that better life

dreams of the stars and all that you are

a destiny made far from here or there

its my only regret

whats left of the better life?

nothing but the chance to settle for second best

if i knew it would cost this much

well, what would i do

if i knew the price for ur pain

what would u ask me to do?

give up on this life?

subordinate

the price to pay for betraying urself and ur maker is unbearable

your pride got in the way of our destiny now mine is there to make amends incongruent

why cant we see the tears in His eyes, and stop focusing on our own

you made this mistake so y should i be the one to clean it up

you lead me right off the path with you

we both went our separate ways

Does divinity have them intersect again?

do you have the courage to find out? cause I don't

now instead of fighting for whats right i cling to what is wrong

its pain distracts me from the scars you left

and now if tears are shed they are for someone else

everything has been slated to keep us apart but i cant let go

the only thing u left me with was a need to be filled a life to live without you

prayers unanswered or prayed for the foolish, stubborn man?

blind pride beat blind faith and now the price to pay

one you can afford but has bankrupt me

surely things less righteous have been resurrected and revived

but the fates have left this in your hands

will you let it perish and return to dust?

what has come to pass

everything changes, everything grows and then everything dies...

I am no exception,

looking back I see some pillars have remained in me amidst all the changes

passion, spirituality, strength, protection, curiosity, reasoning, and sacrifice.

whatever my flavor of the time im greatly passionate about it

spirituality and the belief in ethics, good, and love conquering all the darkness has been paramount

as privileged as i have been in life some episodes required great strength physical, mental, and emotional, and i always found it within me to carry on

sometimes i needed to protect those worth saving, family or friends, most of the time i needed protection and most of the time someone was watching out for me

curiosity is in my nature, i wont let anything stop me from attaining the knowledge i want, thankfully i've had the freedom to do attain it

to be true to myself i must reason through the lastest trend to not be a sheep, but to give real meaning to my life and my actions

finally sacrifice, its been necessary to achieve, if only temporarily, the greatest gifts whether love, wealth, or fame that you seek sacrifice is the only way to achieve the best of these honors.

I believe the greatest love comes from the greatest sacrifice, some relations have been very easy no drama no fighting they seem to know what u want or need before you do but certainly there will be a time when you need to reason or sacrifice to overcome a problem.

Other relations are constantly filled with arguments, trust issues, and the like that you need constant communication, understanding and sacrifice on a daily basis.

most people give up on both of these and settle, settle for something they can live in without ever confronting anything, settle for someone that doesnt take a stand because they dont even feel you're worth any sacrifice. I've always been one to put it all on the line, go all in and sacrifice substantially its always paid off, i have few regrets and those that i do, well i would regret not trying more.